Wait a minute!
So what, the doctors say you have one year? How do they know!
How many times have they told other people they will day in a matter of months but they seize to live years and years of happiness and joy.

I think your friends don't show it anymore because they got tired of the bad feelings they get while talking about it and caring about it. It's like they're numb, you know

What matters now is that you live your life, the sky is the limit!
Do things you thought of doing but never got the chance to, try other things, experience ! Because life is about it.

Few days ago I was watching a TV show, and I've learned that these deceases comes as a result of certain feelings!
I couldn't believe it, but when I thought of those bad feelings and where does it hurt in my body it all made sense to me.

My advice to you, be happy
put a big smile on your face, because you're free!
Being sick does not mean to be miserable , it means to take a step forward and do something in your life that will make people remember you.

Just be happy that you're still able to do stuff other people don't.
When you feel really really bad, take a look to whose who have worse conditions than yours and be thankful.

Focus on being positive and you're life will change, eventually it will.

We will all die, it's good that we don't know when! The bad thing in your story is the feeling that you have only one year left. If this is true, many of us don't have one year left, if not true! why to live with bad feelings the whole comming year(S)?? "No one know what will happen tomorrow. no one know where will he die!!" Don't screw the rest of your valuable life. You say that your friends don't care, As you see, we care, although we don't know you.

What I am going to type and which you are going to read is coming from a different place & culture but it might be helpful for sme one here that no one can predict or know where or when he/she will die and even how she/he will die. All you have to do is looking at the bright side of your life and be sure that your family loves you no matter what happend and don't stop of making them laugh, happy. By the way, I know your family relationship YOU THE WAEST is very weak and sick unlike us HERE IN NAF. Finally, just try to be happy coz if you look at another people's life how they suffer you would say I am the most happy person in this planet, so be happyand laugh and don't look at the year that u have left coz you might die tomorrow.

Peace !

It's not true that people don't care. Some people think they have to be strong for you, so hide their feelings. Others are afraid of the truth -- so deny their feelings. We are not raised to sit and talk openly about death. I'm sure your freinds want to say "How do you feel about life after death; are you afraid? " but they would think that would be insensitive. People don't want to be insensitive to you. Others may feel you should live for the day. In all, I doubt ANY of the people you know don;t care. That's just IMPOSSIBLE! We are all just so afraid -- which is no comfort for you, sadly. But I bet everyone is doing the best they can. Talk to your best friend about this. Make a list together of things you would like to do. And start having fun. Prayers!

Strange that my 1st time visiting this site would be to find someone w/ my exact 'secret'.
I'm in my 20's & have a few years left (at the most) My family/ friends don't seem to think it's a very big deal & there are days when I feel like I'm shouting for someone to notice how much it hurts but, no one can hear me.
What I've come to realize is that your friends & family do care. It's just that they're not living it (waking up w/ it, going to sleep w/ it, eat, sleep, breathing it) 24/7 like we are. And for some reason, they think it would be better to not talk about it (like they're dwelling on it) They don't see that we have to talk about it so we feel like it's effecting the world around us too.
My advice... Find people outside of your close circle of friends & family to talk to. Whether that's a support group or just a social setting we're your comfortable. There are a lot of people that care & you'll find support in places you would never expect if you're willing to be as brave as you've been here. Good luck & I hope it helps a little to know that there are a lot of us dealing w/ the same thing. xoxo ~G

Good to know you finally crashed into the truth. We are born alone, live alone and die alone.

i give a damn.

It takes a great deal of courage to do what you have done here in talking about how you feel, you can take that further by talking to your friends, or a best friend, if you don't feel confident doing that, ask your doctor if there is any voluntary service near you that you could talk to.. I'm sad to think that you only think you have a year left, I can only say what I would do, and that is to make it the most positive year of my life, and tell friends I care about them, I'll certainly be hoping that you do continue to tell your story. Your friend in the UK. Mike.